Friday, February 18, 2011

purely surely

I don't think I was ever lost (not in the sense that The Lost Girls describe it anyhow) but in the past few months, I've certainly been "wandering." I had oh so many questions about the future. Too many. Appreciating the present, living in the moment, doing so completely? It was a seemingly impossible at the time.
I've found that it's really only in the United States that people ask, "What do you do?" immediately upon meeting. Elsewhere around the world the question just doesn't seem to be given as much priority, whereas here, we define each other by our professions. I knew I didn't want to graduate, join the societal crowd, and jump into a miserable, mediocre job just to have one and make money. But, I do think that I longed for a professional purpose. Surely I had worked so hard academically and internship-wise for something, right? 
Yes, I'm still on a happy high about finally being employed. Sorry to be annoying. I wanted to work for an online start-up, grow with a company, do something I'm passionate about... and I am :). I feel like my life has more direction than ever before. I don't know which way I'm headed of course, but then again, I've realized that nobody does. Even if they pretend to. Woohoo, exciting!
There is a lot that I can figure out now though. Like, the ideal time to wake up in the morning so that I can shower, eat breakfast, and make my lunch without almost missing the train I'm supposed to get. Or, packing the right amount of food for the office so that I have enough to sustain me while also leaving just a bit of an appetite for dark chocolate covered goji berries, plantain chips, and edamame crackers. And then there's choosing a gym/fitness center/yoga studio. I went to the most amazing vinyasa class at the spa that is Pure Yoga East last night, but I doubt I'll be able to afford their monthly membership. So far I've only gotten as far as scheduling travel; this weekend I'm headed up to Syracuse, next weekend I'll be exploring newness in the city I call home, and the one after that (ready for this?) Denver, Colorado. It's decided: I am liking the now, I am liking the now a lot.

P.S. My sweet, dear camera has been officially repaired. Let the products of photography recommence!


  1. I'm so happy for you that you're so delighted with your job! No need to apologize--you deserve all the happiness in your life!

  2. You are such a smart woman, and know things it took me years to figure out! When I finally quit my MISERABLE frustrating corporate job this past fall, my biggest thought was that I was what I did for a living. Oh how wrong I was!
    Glad you are happy and liking the now. :)

  3. you know, i noticed that too when i was in australia, they never asked my profession...but they could probably tell i was just a student.

    happy wanderings lady! i'm sure you're enjoying it a lot!

  4. oh my, this was so great to read. especially since i had a similar revelation when i was in san francisco. amazing how travel can just teach you something everytime? i'm a lot more type-a than i realized, especially when it comes to thinking about the future and the whole trip just made me realize that hey, i need a chill pill. what is right now is right now. and what will be, will be.
    which is such a nice thing to remember :)

    so glad you are liking the now (as new age-y, enya-like, as that sounds) and that your new job is what you wanted!! :)

  5. dark chocolate goji berries sound amazing!

  6. BroccoliHut: Thank you, sweetheart!

    Meghan@travelwinedine: What a compliment! Thanks so much. In reality, I'm only figuring things out as I go along, but it's nice to know I'm on the right track. Hope you're enjoying the now to that same extent :).

    Trying To Heal: Interesting, isn't it? Thank ya much!

    whatevergatsby: Yes, yes it is amazing. I'm glad you were able to remember/realize such great things as well. Thank you! Oh, they are! The absolute best.


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